After a semester of being in a field placement that was not a good fit, I definitely understand this feeling. It was hard to adapt to a work environment in which tasks and schedules were different every day. I often felt as if there was something wrong with me because such things seemed so much easier for my coworkers. They could find the right words to say or quickly respond to demands that seemed to be ever-changing. I, a self-admitted terrible multitasker, often felt confused and exhausted at work.
I remember reading, “Writing has saved my sanity if not my life and the lives of countless Aspergirls I’ve spoken to. It will validate your thoughts – you will read them later with a clear head and you will see that much of what you think is reasonable and true. Some of it will be quite negative – in these cases you need to re-frame what you are looking at and what you are thinking about” (Simone, 2010, pp. 75-76). I’ve found that whenever I’m upset, journaling helps me to feel less muddled inside. I can channel the sea of thoughts from my poor worried brain to my computer screen via typing and it helps somehow. I’ve noticed that by simply going back and reading what I typed later that day, I validate those emotions and thoughts. I can say to myself, “What you were feeling was very real and normal under those challenging circumstances,” which allows me to normalize such experiences.
So dear readers, that’s all for now. Maybe I’ll write a film review next time or talk about transition resources concerning college and careers for fellow Aspies. We’ll see.